Am i meant to be alone?

ok im not capping words or spelling at all crrectly im drunk and have a question so just awnser it im in a relationship now but i am not happy at all i miss being single having fun ect. ive only met one girl who made me happy and i lost her from being a dick and a half but o-well life goes on it was about 3 yrs ago and i she still crosses my mind every fing day its nuts but since her ive been single until recently and even when i was with my x i was kind of misserable even though im sire ill never love anyone or anything like ive loved her i have no fam just friends and she was the first person to show me love and im forever gratefull to her for that but im just so much happier single i can go out and have fun noone to awnser to noone to bother me ect. i mean my current gf is cool and does w.e for me but im just not as happy as i was single i like to travle which ive done since i was 18 and im 21 now i love to be free idk i just want to travle and see things not everyone sees i look up to my elders alot and take advice from them and almost all of them tell me they wish they would of travled and seen the world so im on a misson to do that dont get me wrong i work i pay my bills but i also have np restrictons to go somewhere else and start over unlike most people or even thoughs with illousions or fear of leaving their pathatic lifes to seek adventure but i feel like this woman is holding me back and restricting me from having fun idk is it just cause im young or is it who im hared wired to be idk for some reason thew whoke living happiliy ever after bull shyt seems taboo to me id rather be single meet people and have realations withs the oppisite sex than that fall in love bs am i abnormal or is it just who i am??? btw sorry about the shyitt spelling like i said im drunk i went out with some friends from work tonight and had ine ti many